I can't believe we have been home for almost 15 months! And I can't believe my baby will turn 3 in December. Time is flying by. I can't remember what life was like before she was my daughter. Sometimes I grieve over the 18 months I missed with her. I'll see an infant and think about how I wish I could have known her at that age. I wonder what she looked like before her surgery and wish more than anything that I could have been there for her during the scary time of her surgery. It makes me so thankful for every "new" thing she does, because I missed so many firsts in her life. She is such a blessing...and a mess.
The Lord has really been convicting Gene and I lately about materialism. I realize that so many times I show my love to her by giving her something. What we really desire is for her to have experiences and memories with us. We want her to have a heart for the poor and be appreciative of what she is given. We have committed to really scale back on "stuff," and to focus on experiences with her. This will be a challenge with the holidays and birthday approaching. But we are resolved to be obedient and make some tough changes in our family.
Lastly, Eden has been talking constantly lately about her little sister in China named Lucy. Don't ask me where she gets this stuff. We have talked to her about adopting again when we explain to her about her adoption. But she is taking it to a whole new level. She'll bring me a toy and say, "I not need this anymore, I save it for Lucy in China. She is crying and sad and this will make her feel better." She has quite the imagination. Gene and I are hopeful that we will begin a home study late next spring to adopt again. We are praying for God's direction in all of this, but are right now leaning toward going back to China. We think it might be important for Eden to walk through the experience with us on this end, and travel to her home land. We will have to see what doors God opens as we depend on Him.
Hope you are all doing great. I will post again soon!